Near Death Experience
In 1978 at the age of 18 I had a profound afterlife experience. I died during a car accident and through a mystery life was restored to my injured body. When I woke up in the aftermath I was diagnosed with retrograde amnesia. The personal history of my childhood was buried in my subconscious. For many years to come I was handicapped with a continuing problem of memory lapses. In the aftermath of my near death experience there were many spiritual themes following me in the undertow current of my life. I was more interested in the here and now especially trying to discover the hidden past buried in my childhood. I learned to take the afterlife experience for granted. It was invisible and silent. It was the foundation for my own spiritual belief system. I studied the thoughts and beliefs of others for many years. I felt everyone had their own belief system based on their own personal experiences. I felt some had a mind to probe and explore the deeper hidden mysteries to life while and others didn't.
Through the years I would speak privately to friends and share some of my memories of the afterlife as well as some of the understanding I felt I walked away from with the experience. Many of my friends made me make them a promise. They wanted me to write my recollections down and share them. During the early years I felt I was on an exploration for my own self. I wanted to prove some of the facts for myself before I spoke on the subjects to others. Many of the subjects include soul mates, reincarnation, after death communications, spirits, written and oral understanding of scriptures, and the controversial figure of a man known through history as Jesus among many other miscellaneous mystical subjects.
Near Death Experiences
Shortly after my first experience with death in 1978 a friend and co-worker told me about a new controversial book on the market. It was written by a professional psychologist who had gathered testimony from various patients who had suffered some type of clinical death. The psychologist started noticing a similar pattern to the patients testimony. My friend felt that professionals in the medical field were starting to take testimonial experiences such as mine seriously. I had experienced my fair share of ridicule when I told people I had 'died' and been sent back from the afterlife. My friend in 1978 introduced me to the term 'near death experience.' I didn't like the sound of the phrase. I felt it implied that my testimony was based on a near mishap. Sort of like speeding down the highway and narrowly missing an on coming vehicle, nearly escaping the clutches of death. My friend recommended I read it. I only browsed through the pages at a book store. I didn't feel it applied to me. Most of the patients involved were revived at a hospital by medical professionals. My internal injuries were not healed by the hands of physical human beings. My internal injuries were healed by the hands of the invisible and silent transcendental beings I had met with outside my body. To me and my mind, they were "people" without flesh and bone. I wanted to know if others who had experienced this class of personalities and what they were called from the human point of view. My quest was to try and find a way to speak on the unspeakable without offending anyone's personal belief system. I studied my own outlook for years. I eventually gave my own mind over to silence. Then, in 1988 I had another 'near death experience.' This one occurred in front of 10 eye witnesses. One of the internal injuries from my car accident had relapsed and caused medical complications. Prior to the arrival of the ambulance my breath left the physical body. I thought having people eyewitness my "death" and resurrection back to life through a spiritual and mystical power would make my testimonial afterwards easier. It didn't. The world was still full of controversial ideas and theories when it comes to the subject matter of the after life. Eight of the ten eyewitnesses where close friends. Most of them would argue and debate their own religious convictions when I tried to express my point of view and travel into the afterlife realm of love and light.
Spiritual Life
From 1978 to 1983, I had four close friends pass over into the afterlife. Unlike me, they didn't return to their physical bodies. For some reason I was still in touch with them through a psychic means of telecommunications. When I spoke about this ability to other minds of this world they compared it to ESP. My life was filled with paranormal activity and I took it for granted. I was intimidated by the lack of my own understanding as well as a lack of understanding from others. It was not an easy subject matter for me to speak on as a teenager and young adult. A couple of pioneers on this theme was a husband and wife who started a project in 1988 and researched the testimony of many people about their own similar experiences. They wrote a book titled "Hello From Heaven" documenting their research. During my private conversations with friends about my strange relationship with the spiritual realm of departed souls, someone mentioned the extraordinary work of these researchers. I only thumbed through the pages of the book. I felt I had my own experiences to reflect upon.
Soul Mates
One of the many themes that came out of my 'near death experience' related to a 'twin spiritual force' of energy which acts on another level in par with our own physical course through life. When my 'departed friends' came to me in visions and dreams in after death communications they reinforced this set of beliefs. We all have a twin spirit within us as well as outside of us. What I was being told through my spiritual conversations was hard to comprehend at times. I felt I was on a treasure hunt through time to unlock the mystery surrounding the deeper meaning to life in the physical world as well as life in the spiritual world. When I spoke on this theme in the early days people would refer me to the works and writings of Plato. I could never fully comprehend the style of writing that was translated from the ancient minds. What others referred to as "soul mates," from my opinion based on my 'near death' after life experience, I liked to refer to those select individuals as old and dear friends from 'heaven.' I didn't like the computer dating scene implying a spiritual man-made connection to the divine.
Reincarnation
Reincarnation was a frequent theme which came up often in the aftermath of my 'near death experience.' I had my own personal opinion regarding the theme and theory. When 'spirit' showed up, it would have a way of leading my mind in a direction of belief regarding the theme as a fact. When my spirit returned from trip into the afterlife it remained hidden within me. My spirit is the "force or energy" which retained the memories of the afterlife adventure. My human mind was often left in the dark regarding the spiritual subject matters. My human mind evolved from one stage of theory to the next. All the while, my spirit had insights to what was shown and known during the 'out of body' experience in the afterlife.
Promises
I have devoted myself to writing down some of the themes I felt were important for me during my years of discovery after my first 'near death experience' in 1978. The themes where primarily on friendships that developed in the interest of hidden 'spiritual connections' as well as the loved shared with others while in this world. The main theme of my afterlife experience was love. When my spirit was outside of the physical body, the feeling of unconditional love, peace and divine serenity was the norm. When my spirit returned to the physical body again this norm sort of took a back seat to worldly matters. I feel the struggle in this world is to connect with our inner and hidden spiritual identity and the norm our Creator created our spirit in the image of.
I feel the quest for truth in not a quest of words or thoughts as much as it is a quest for the understanding of love. Love for our Creator as well as love we share with others in the interest of truth.
Childhood - Medical Miracles
For the majority of my adult life, memories of my childhood have been locked away in a closet of the hidden subconscious mind. As an adult - I have never had full access to any details pertaining to my childhood or any medical conditions I dealt with. When I was 28 - a physician got a rare glimpse of a medical image during an emergency situation. He told me that the history of my childhood was hidden in that medical image. He said,
"You had to have died 1000 deaths. Each one of these marks represents a miracle that had to have taken place for your body to sustain life."
His words to me where a mystery to my conscious mind at the time. I can now remember my childhood and the 1000 deaths he spoke of. I have created a section in reference to memories of crisis that came upon my family when I was seven years old and the many miracles that happened over a five year period as well as the many 'near death experiences' I endured.
New Server and Web Site
| In 2008, a new cache of hidden memories surfaced from
my subconscious mind. In 1978, my Doctors warned me about the
trauma that would come with the recall of hidden childhood memories
associated with my 'medical condition' which led to the many near death
experiences in childhood. I took some time off from this
writing project and found a new server to meet my growing needs. I
felt I would never be about to share my story of the NDE until I
reclaimed my hidden childhood memories. I now feel I can start to
make sense of the missing pieces to the puzzle that go with the
childhood NDE's.
It will be an ongoing effort to write down the new memories in an effort to keep my promises to share the story of my many 'near death experiences' in childhood as well as the two in adulthood. Sincerely, DKing |
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